Approval feels oh so good.

It's official! We have finally been approved by our agency to adopt! I am so glad that part of the process is over and we can begin the search for our baby.

It's strange though. I imagined I'd feel this giant weight off my shoulders when we received our much-anticipated approval. But I don't. Don't get me wrong, it feels great to have the interviews, home visits and seemingly never-ending paperwork out of the way, but at least I was doing something. Now I find myself viewing my profile over and over trying to imagine an expectant mother reading about us and deciding whether or not we are the ones to raise her baby.

How does someone decide such a thing? Surely a letter and pictures help, but there has to be a higher power who inspires and moves someone in the direction of another. I believe that will be how it happens for us and our birth mother-to-be. She will find us because she is supposed to, not because we come across through our letter and pictures as being perfect, but because she feels we are perfect for her child.

Writing our "message" or "letter to the birth mother" as it is commonly called was the hardest thing I have ever had to write. How does one express their deepest feelings of respect and admiration without sounding condescending or in-genuine? Or relay how much we love each other and love being parents without sounding cheesy or self-indulgent? How do I express the deepest part of myself that aches to hold a child and call it my own when it is growing in the womb of another?

Needless to say I had writers block of the century. I wanted inspiration. I wanted someone to take my hand and write it for me, perfectly narrating our lives, our values, our experiences and our feelings. This didn't happen. After much prayer, thought and consideration The Hubs and I were left to our own accord. It needed to come from us. Our most sincere thoughts about ourselves and each other and why we believe this is the path we were always meant to travel. God knows it, but we needed to know it. Really know it. And we do.

It isn't perfect or as eloquent as I'd probably like, but it's from us and that makes it special. Hopefully someone out there will think so too.

Take a peek if you're interested. And if you know someone who is considering adoption, please forward her our link. And thanks so much to everyone who reads this blog. It means more than you know to have so much love and support.